Sunday, 20 November 2016

October Updated | Judith ❀



Hello everyone ! Being a long time didn't touch on my pinky blog and now I'm cleaning the dusty of the blog. Hope you enjoy to read !

Start from this month , I will resume my blog again in order to write ore about myself , food , travel , good things and other my own interest. I will try to manage well my blog since everyone still viewing my blog. This make me so surprised as from the beginning of 2016 , my blog was 2000 views and now 10000 views. This happening make me feel positive because I am not blogging nearly one year.

Where am I vanish almost half year ?
Actually I don't know. Everyday I do nothing. The target I set from last year is becoming obsolete.
I am so depressed how would it become like this ? This is what I am going to obtain ?
Is that my problem ? Or something else that obstruct my way ?
Maybe.
I don't even make this year a productive one or I have told myself I want to make this month productive but still nothing decent outcome.





This month should be my birthday month. I want to be happier , healthier , stronger and achieve the target but the reality dampen my enthusiasm of. Nowadays , I eat healthy food and choose a healthy way to live on ! But I can't see the result. I haven't figured out the answer.

They said " the efforts will not betray you , so keep going on ! "


Actually I have cut down my weight from previous 125 kg to 95 kg.
How a big achievement to me. I continue on the same way , I set the target from 95 kg to 80 kg this year. So this year I ought to be 80 kg now. But unfortunately , NO !
I gain back the weight and I am so sad to hear this.


WHY ! WHY !! WHY !!!
Am I wrong ? I don't know ? Am I overeat the food ?
When I reflect on myself , I get a answer. The problem occur during the short semester !

What did I do?
I don't workout almost for two month. At that mean time , I eat white rice and not eat clean and also junk food.

After short semester , I stand on scales , my weight from 95 kg become 103 kg.
I remember that I was so shock to know this. My heart fall in the deep of the sea.
When I study in short semester , I eat junk food , sleep late and do nothing with roommate.
I used to easily influenced by other people.

This is what my problem. But now I can act for oneself ! Which mean I won't easily affected by other people from now on. As you know , 2x journey is so short and with a glimpse of eyes it will going to 3x year old. Time files fast , you need to make the choice of yourself and every you choice will affected your future.

I ask myself. Who am I going to blame ? No... Blame who ?
I am the person who do wrongly , being make a huge mistake and now I am so regret about it.





Now my weight still maintain on 103 kg.
Everyday I have done my workout , nowadays I also go for jogging ( short run ) 35 minutes.
Still planning my workout menu. And too ! My clean eat menu !

I believe that I can surpass my limit.
Anime always come out with this , " The biggest enemy is in front of us , in our heart. Once you surpass it , you are doing well and good work ! "

I'm getting old as I said before. I'm going to enter a new journey that started with 2x year old.
Before I end my 1x year old. I need to do something and not end up with futile.

Other than this , I always been questioned " Have you loss weight today ? " , " Today you look so fat. " , " Why do not your weight drop ? " , " reduce your weight please " some sort of this words.
I am so tired to handle these kind of question. Am I going to lose weight or you guys ?
It is like a invisible stress being put on my heart or brain.
I feel unhappy ! Really UNHAPPY !

Why you guys always judge me on that way ? I loss weigh is for myself or I do it for you ?
I AM DOING FOR MYSELF ! So please shut up ! I am myself , and not yours !
Stop your rant , I can't stand with negative thoughts anymore.


One thing I also like to share with your guys , I sprain my left knee.
Before sprain my knee , I feel a strong compulsion and I make it impulsive behavior. I didn't think any consequence about that , just do it just do it because my mind is forcing me to do it.
Then I sprain my left knee. I feel my leg is lacking strength. I even can't stand properly.
I cry so hard. Why I do this ?

I talk to my mum if I have this kind of symptom , I need to stop and sit down and deep breathe.
Angry make everything worst. So I was like , okay next time I won't do this again.



Is that because I listen to other people rant ? Can't stand with the rant irritate ?
I make a big failure to myself. Listen to the negative thoughts.
Negative thoughts are like evil beside you , surround you. You need to overcome it before the negative thoughts cover your positive.


I don't know how my knee will be but I wish that my knee will be okay , and this time is a big lesson for me.
I have done the treatment and two weeks I can't have any intense exercise.
If you don't want to cheer up me and keep giving a mindset to me " why your weight does not drop ? " like this , I will be unconcerned with you.

In this harsh times , I need to be disciplined and protect my consciousness.
If not , I will not be myself anymore.

Be selfish , YIXIU say " Be selfish that love yourself more and more , don't care other people. "
You not live for other person , you live for yourself !





Actually I hope someone can cheer me up like doing exercise together with me , or eat healthy food , enough sleep or whatever that is positive attitude. Or I also wish that someone can just be with me and not break one's promise.
But what reality is " Why you work out for a long time and the weight didn't start to drop ? " , " Only you do this , I'm enjoy eat and play. "
The environment and human attitudes make me feel disappointed. Why can't you guys be positive ?

I think , think , think again. I have found out the answer.
My thing doesn't matter to them , or even to you too.
Anyway , every one is unique and has his / her own value. We live it because we need to find ourselves own value. No one can bother in your way.

Learn to ignore the negative things and surround you with positive and smiling / helping people.
Evil can make you die but angel can make you live happy !


Lastly , thank you for reading my blog post or my fiddle-faddle and I hope that my english  is not getting worse than before.
I cheer myself up. I only listen to the people with positive thoughts. Do you know ? Happy can make positive thoughts. Happy to summon the lucky , tho.
I am changing my bad attitude.
Sleep early , eat healthier , smile more and do more. Become more disciplined and try not to rely on others.
Before end of 2016 , I would like to make some useful and things that amaze my life.



If you don't step forward, you are always in the same place.

Told yourself always !
Stop letting people make you feel bad or embarrassed about doing what makes you happy.
Find what you love and do more of it. AND NEVER APOLOGIZE.

Inculcating a strong belief of yourself !
You've always been beautiful and now you're deciding to be healthier , fitter , faster ,stronger. For yourself and not for other people !!! Remember that !

Stop doubting yourself , work hard and make it happen !

From - Kayla Itsines

I love her attitude and her quotes. I always see her post on instagram and I so inspired by them. They can do it but why I can't ?





When I back home , I try to discuss how I feel on bad way and my mum is going to help me.
My mum said before " Buy chicken breast and lean meat for me. " Then I say buy more , she says the fridge still have lots in boxes. Okay , I eat whole oat , brown rice and some sort like this.
I laugh lol.

My mum want me sleep early in night because late sleep can cause obese to us.
As a result , I will sleep early , I want to be healthy. I need to love my body instead of harming myself.

I have my own progress need to be announced here. I’m going to cut down my weight.

Since I have drop the weight from 120 kg to 95 kg and after I stay in school hostel , every night I need to eat their provided dinner ( almost white rice , heavy taste like salt and MSG ). Then I gain weight on the this year 10 kg , from 95 kg to 105 kg.

This period I was so sad and being so sad ,  I don’t know why I am gaining weight and not losing weight. I really don’t know , maybe I eat wrong type food , or my workout or exercise that I put are not that strong to force my body to build the muscle. 

I feel like I losing the mood on it. I’m not positive enough. And now , I already join the journey that start with 2x year old. I will getting older and older , but my life isn’t that productive. My heart tell me , that isn’t right if I continue in this way. I feel lazy and sleepy , don’t want have a move after I stop to workout. 

No , I TOLD MYSELF LIFE IS SHORT AND NOW IS THE TIME TO START OVER AGAIN. THERE IS NOT BEING LATE FOR ME.




So I will put everything here , how I eat , how I workout start from tomorrow !
I will fully write another blog post that about that the way you eat.
Eat is much more important because it already stand for 70% in our body. And the workout only stand for 30%. You eat in correct way , you are stepping in the way of winning.

90 days meal plan plus workout. These 90 days must eat clean. I have one month to travel at foreigner country. Hope it can’t be healthy and still can have a clean eat.
This year will be end soon , this year I don’t earn anything fitness that regarding my body. So I going make from this year , November 16, 2016 to next year November 16 , 2017. 10 days meals plan in one post about my meal plan. Hope it also benefits you guys too.

And also need to practice good behavior like be more positive and happy if not you will be feel more stress while you work out. You will be so stressed and unhappy and everything you do will be wasted. So you need to condition yourself mood and status , it is important to be managed well.





Don’t be easily affected by other negative person. Stay away from them in order to keep yourself wide awake. I am the one who affected by other people , I mean I don’t alert myself and go the wrong way to join them , everyday being lazy and eat snack. 

If you in the 90 days eat clean meal plan , you need to avoid yourself from touching those kind of unhealthy food. Eat original food is the main purpose you need to follow !


Do some research on the work out and how they eat.
I have done the research but I need to prepare ingredients so that my plan can work through.





Not even my things , but also food. I haven't collect all the delicious and famous food about Sarikei or Sibu / Kuching. Feel free will hanging out with friend to enjoy it.
Also the travelling post , I will travel almost a month ( December ) to foreigner country to have fun and enjoy myself. I mean escape from stresses or whatever else.
When 17 18 Dec I able to attend the event Comic Fiesta. This is my first time go with my friend Eren. I hope everything will be going smooth too.


For this winter season 2016 anime , I recommend that

  • Natsume Yuujinchou Go , 
  • Nanbaka , 
  • Bloodvices ,
  • Vivid Strike , 
  • Yuri on Ice ! ,
  • Haikyuu third season , 
  • trickter , 
  • ajin second season
  • bungou stray dogs second season , 
  • Shuumatsu no Izetta.




Your love ,

Judith Khoo





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