Once again , happy birthday to me !
I've reborn at October 23 , 2017. Thank you everyone for greetings me. I appreciate a lot. Thank you.
Getting older which means we also getting closer to the reality. Despite that we still studying at college, taking courses doesn't mean that we can totally avoid to face the reality. Reality is cruel , dramatic.
Being live along is good after a long period of time of emotionally drained that cause by my friend. All the time it mays happen when you are yourself only. No one company you , comfort you , even they don't want to talk to you.
The things they've done to me by hurting my feelings, thanks to you guys , I've become stronger.
Not all of friends is suitable has a heart-to-heart talk. Yes , only a few. They know how to comfort me but some of them just saying life theory to me. What's the point I listen to it. Or some of them just say " just ignore it " but some of you say " don't strain at heart, waver it off. "
I was like - this is my first feeling , without talking to someone else how I wave aside. Sorry being to extreme but I think I should digest by myself since they are not me and they don't know the feel.
They might say " that's your life what's the point you're telling me ? I am not interested at all. "
I am still growing up , some of the friend are too busy with their assignment and test , posting and attachment , and I know some of you prefer busy until you want to see how's other people live , ignore me than they don't even want to reply my message.
Okay , it's okay actually. I need to prepare myself well , because future might getting more of these. I should have learnt how to overcome it.
Yes , seeing me complaining how busy they are , what they have lived , seems like I have nothing to do right ? I actually like to talk to someone and I can't keep silently. That's me! Love to laugh , love to talk , love to motivate together. But at here , I feel nothing , I feel negatives , feel avoiding , feel estrange , feel hatred and etc.
Do you know that , the feel likes being isolated ? I'm a hyperactive girl if compared to silent. Sorry , I love to make sound, I can't keep quietly, I can't even get along but now. Yes ! Now I have changed. I still laugh , still talkative, still doing my favourite things but only to certain people. Sorry , I have to control my feelings , being explosive isn't good right ?
I seldom show my expression on public but I don't bring back to my own place too. I usually wave off by watching some theatre and horror survival gameplay. That's the way I wave off. Thanks to pewdiepie, his gameplay always full of funny things. I laugh so hard until I can't help myself.
Although I'm getting hurt of this but my favourite girls and lady always inspiring me when I'm down.
They find things to do , put themselves to the limits , rather than finding those idle friends , spending time wastefully , TRUE friends are precious to me.
You might think , how can I so extreme to this. I'm feel like I've started my college , there are a lot of things keep happening and against me. I keep private account because I want to shout out my voice.
But now I use my private account to post something my feeling , my growing lifestyle , not more of negative things appear on my feed.
Some of my friends say I look so younger and more beautiful than before. Okay , here is a reason.
I quit the artificial sugar for a month. All my photo posted in wechat neither previous photo or the latest photo only.
My friends used to judge me how childish I am, how immature I am, how stupid I am. After four years , we're gathering together. She says , " finally you have grown up , I love positive attitude and thinkings. Back then I really wrote a lot of negative comments on other people, but now I write it in another ways only.
But , I want to be matured , self of culture. Be a person who also inspiring other people. Though that they won't inspired by me since I love to watch anime , manga and novel. They keep looking down how stupid anime be , how childish blah blah blah bad comments. I don't watch Korean drama , so far I can tell my favourite Korean drama is Da Chang Jing.
After a long long wordy. I seldom use public Facebook and public wechat but I will keep posting but I won't reply any messages if there is nothing important to me.
Complaining Stop !!!!
Thanks to them , I become stronger and stronger. I no longer have energy for chasing after them. I choose to chase after myself in order to further upgrading my level.
I have a lot of fun in listening to the seminar in Tahnamas Hotel.
It is talking about entrepreneur and industry in Sarawak held by MIEDA. It wants us to have the knowledge if we want to be a sole proprietorship or sendirian berhad in Malaysia.
My OOTD is a bit , huh I don't what words can express my feeling.
Every successful always experience a lot of failure and hard work before they arrive the highest peak of the mountain.
I love their awesome work and ability. I hope one day I also be able to get through those experience and be a businessman.
I LOVE FOOD !!! Food always make me happy * laugh *
This is marvelous , every food is delicious ! It makes me want to eat more and actually I eat until full which make me I don't have my dinner in that day.
Grab some food before arriving the final exams.
Gonna work extra harder for it because it was my final years though that I haven't gotten my FR2 , FRP and auditing subjects.
The food is yummy and the portion is so huge ! I eat super full at the night.
Despite that the bitter ground is bitter but I actually love bitter ground fried with eggs. It makes the taste so flavor !
Mapo Toufu lol. It doesn't sound like what television has acted like but it still consider okay and the Mengu Chicken the taste likes chicken fried with milk , curry leaves and lemon juices. I will try it after my final exams.
Happy Birthday to Me !!! Yeahhh !!!
I cook curry chicken and chicken soup ahahahaha!!!
Happy Birthday again to me !!! Mom buys me cute and lovely birthday cake !!!
I make a lot of wishes and I hope I can make it out in reality !
* Updating guys *
I still continue writing the novel , I cry a lot because of the grieve and emotional abuse of the novel , but come to the end , I will redouble the happiness of the main character. So no worries ! I'm fine. I also indirectly abuse my emotional of myself too.
After crying makes me feel relaxed and peaceful. Huhuhuh ~~~
Cut the cake ~ MEOW ~~~
ITADAKIMASU ~~~
ITADAKIMASU ~~~
It is chocolate and yam flavor !!! Awwwww ~~~
Then I have a toothache after eating sweet things. But soon I will have a tooth extraction before I travel to foreign country. And I also will cut my hair too. I hate long hair.
2017 is going to come at an end. Is time to plan something meaningful and productive things to achieve. No more friends will company to achieve these all. I will achieve everyone one by one.
I've thoughts over and over again.
I've done most of my achievements in Level One ✅. But that doesn't fulfill my eager and desire. I hope next year I would be able to unlocked another level of my achievements.
It seems hard and tough but anyway, i want to make 20's a amazing journey in my life record. I don't have friends , I only left myself , no one is going to distract me. Hence , I really hope that I can make friends with other people in other places like Japan , Taiwan or ACGN events.
And you guys know what's the place like and cultural be. So I don't expect anything, because those things never come true.
Thus, I would like to be independent and live along.
Lastly ~~~
I have a good news to tell. Let us motivate and inspiring each other ! We need positive friends and strong determination !
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Current; Weight : 103 kg | Height : 170
Muscle : 67.3 | Fat : 40.1
Target; 60kg | Fat : 30
Current; Weight : 103 kg | Height : 170
Muscle : 67.3 | Fat : 40.1
Target; 60kg | Fat : 30
The process of loss weight , getting fitness and build muscle is in standstill mode. I want to surpass my limit , to breakthrough the limit and outgrowing yourself to live your best life.
Actually I've lost myself in the mist but seeing those amazing people making success , I would like to be one of them.
Being happy , have positive thoughts & mind and balance are much more important while you want to get fitness and slim down. Depressed won't work out on positive things.
Don't think that exercise is a punishment for what you are but it's a way to find out more about yourself with your own ability.
Free yourself from negative person,
you free yourself to be YOU. Being YOU is the only way to truly live. I've
surrounded people with motivate and inspire , passion and open minded,
supportive and well rounded. Thanks for the people who always support me,
thanks.
To have a good life , fuel yourself with good nutrition , food is an priority to consider when you intake, good food makes good life and good mood.
Life is too short to spend. You only live once.
If you haven't started your dream , start it with it ! Find more about yourself through the transformation. You can do it because you're amazing !
Hard time brings stronger of you,
what people say or think of you , ignore it ! Focus on what are you doing and
make you happy. People might easily influenced you just like me , I remember
that I've given up in the progress because of the alluring snacks and fast
food. But when I see those of my hard work that I hardly make it is starting to
lose , I realise how weak I am. You can eat cheat meal but now because of the
allergic and sensitive of my teeth , I start to quit the artificial sugar
merely a month only but it makes me look younger and healthier. My skin condition
is getting smooth and nice.
Make fun of life , somethings we don't need any reason to do things in your life. Feel happy , feel energetic , feel productive and feel passionate of your life.
PS : DON'T GIVE UP when you can't see the result , your hard work won't betray you.
Things take time , be patient with yourself.
Your love ,
Judith Khoo
